What the Torta Kid Taught Me

I remember seeing the Vine of the little boy who opened the fridge to realize that someone ate his torta (sandwich). I posted the video below, if you haven’t already seen it. The expression of pure despair in the boy’s voice struck a cord with me, because it is the sound of losing something that…… Continue reading What the Torta Kid Taught Me

Flying, Falling with Style, and Living Free from Fear

I’m writing this from somewhere in Harlem, New York City. I had to get away from my friends for a while because I felt overwhelmed by everything – these present changes, the future, the past… It felt like so much, too much. So, I did what I do best – went to a nearby cafe,…… Continue reading Flying, Falling with Style, and Living Free from Fear

What am I going to do now? and other questions during recovery

I am experiencing a bit of anxiety about how my life will look after all these changes I’m making. I am reminding myself that I am not in control of most things, but what I am in control of is myself. I have got to trust that good things will come, and are already coming.…… Continue reading What am I going to do now? and other questions during recovery

Clear Mind, Scary Thoughts

It’s been about a week since I started the sobriety journey and the “try to stop giving unsolicited advice and try to free myself of trying to control other people” journey. One thing that I’ve noticed, in doing both of these things at the same time, that my cleared mind is making way for a…… Continue reading Clear Mind, Scary Thoughts

One Thing Leads to Another

I’ve been working on my dependencies lately, most critically the nature of co-dependency and the nature of finding emotionally unavailable people attractive. One thing that has become apparent as I go down this healing journey, is that I am using other substances as an additional source of dependency. I’m talking about addiction. I’m talking about…… Continue reading One Thing Leads to Another