Back in August 2019 , three months after branching out on my own and succeeding. I was feeling shook. I can’t say I was surprised, because that would imply that I doubted myself, but I will admit that all my imaginings of life did not measure up to the reality. And that reality was this: that I can be an alchemist of sorts by mixing knowledge, action, and emotion. I learned I can embrace change, become aware of my wants and needs, and actively construct a pathway for the life I wish to lead. All in all, I’d say I proved to myself that if I imagine something, and want it badly enough, and take brave actions toward that goal, I will succeed.
ii. In the words of Peter Parker’s Dad, “with great power, comes great responsibility.” I struggled with the newfound power in myself. Now that I realized I can do anything, what would I do? I thought I knew the answer – I thought it lied in moving to the Big Apple as soon as possible. I channeled myself toward this goal, and by Fall I realized I wanted to change direction – I decided I preferred the vision of staying in Austin and exploring the world with a solid home base.
Now that the year is coming to an end, I am ready to take what I have learned and use it to construct my vision of my dream life. I am improving my relationship with myself through a variety of outlets (yoga, writing, walking Major…) and I feel excited to imagine the possibilities, and also feel grateful for the freedom to choose the path that feels right for me.
In the next six months I see myself continuing to travel widely and simultaneously managing a tight-knit, close, and loving community life in Austin. Since I learned that only I am responsible for the quality of my own experience, I am actively working to build a life full of love, friendship, and artistic creations.