As you guys may know, I’ve been on a journey from recognizing I had an addiction to marijuana, to addressing it and changing my bad habits and living a new life. Since I began this journey I have relapsed. It terrifies me how easy it is to fall back into those bad habits. Why is…… Continue reading Why is Breaking Habits So Hard? (Not What You Think)
“and I have become comfortably numb,” is what Pink Floyd song says in what I consider to be one of the most depressing songs of all time. When I look back at when I started using drugs, it was because I enjoyed feeling comfortably numb. It was better than the anxiety and depression and self-defeating…… Continue reading Numb / Detox / Relapse / Recycle ?
Is it really the thought that counts? I think not. And the hit Christmas classic, “A Miracle on 34th Street” shows that a positive action is more important than good intent. Using three examples from the movie, I prove that when we do good things, good things are bound to happen, even when the motive…… Continue reading “A Miracle on 34th Street” Shows Action Trumps Intent
As I write this, it is 8:24 PM on Christmas Eve. My apartment is in transition because I began re-arranging at around 7. So far the kitchen table has moved closer to the window, and the living room is closer to the entryway. Seeing as how I live in a one-room studio, re-arranging is both…… Continue reading My First Christmas in New York (2020 Covid Edition)
I’m having trouble, which is usually a sign of something better to come. I’m having trouble because of the differences between where I have been and where I have yet to go. The trouble is, I’m no longer satisfied with where I am now. Here is an uncomfortable place. But I don’t like going backwards.…… Continue reading Identity Crisis
No one actually wants to go out to in them.
I’ll start this post by saying I broke my sobriety the other day and although it was a great time with friends, and though I felt fine the following day, I knew I was going down a slippery slope. The truth is, it’s either all or nothing for me, and right now I’m choosing nothing.…… Continue reading Sobriety During the Holidays: Impossible?
Ugh. Just ugh. Here’s a piece that has been in my mind, pricking it my brain, for days now. It’s about why getting healthy, mentally and physically, actually sucks. It’s about why I actually hate personal growth. Eff this. It’s so hard, sometimes it feels too hard. And I feel both brave and hopeless and…… Continue reading Why Getting Healthy Actually Sucks