My interest in Irish history is teaching me lots of cool terms, like shite and ta. But I digress – I need to tell you that it’s okay to feel okay about the things you are capable of doing. And that it’s not necessary to feel badly about those things you aren’t capable of doing.…… Continue reading How to Feel Good About What You Can Do (Versus Feeling Shite About What You Can’t)
Hey guys, it’s been a while since I’ve written about substances in my life. I went from chilling, to realizing I couldn’t chill anymore and be happy, to beginning a journey of sobriety that showed me how much I came to rely on the magical marijuana plant. This led me to some much-needed therapy and…… Continue reading Ritalin: To Take or Not to Take? That Is the Question
I’ll start this post by saying I broke my sobriety the other day and although it was a great time with friends, and though I felt fine the following day, I knew I was going down a slippery slope. The truth is, it’s either all or nothing for me, and right now I’m choosing nothing.…… Continue reading Sobriety During the Holidays: Impossible?
I had been curious about taking the Amtrak for a while now, since it connects NYC to Baltimore, Philadelphia, and Washington, D.C. all within a few hours of each other. So on Wednesday morning I booked a ticket to depart that afternoon and return the next morning (today.) I’m writing this from the coach class…… Continue reading Pearl Goes to Washington
I’ve been reading the Bhagavad Gita in my endless journey into the unknown recesses of my mind, and I learned that the way we Westerners understand Karma is woefully ignorant. Yes, it can be summed up in the phrase, “What goes around comes around,” but there’s another dimension to the concept of Karma that I…… Continue reading Bedtime Routines and a Lesson in Karma
Riding uptown in a yellow cab, windows down, smelling the September air (surprisingly fresh despite this concrete jungle,) I pulled out my phone to snap a video for Instagram. I wished to share the moment with my followers, my friends, the world. But I quickly put my phone back in my purse, aware that if…… Continue reading Pics or It Didn’t Happen: Social Media and Sacrificing the Moment
I’ve committed to yet another self-experiment. I enjoy guinea-pigging myself to see how certain methods affect me. Mostly, I come out on top – learning more about myself along the way, and despite the discomforts of the experiment, I usually end up implementing at least part of the techniques in my daily life. In this…… Continue reading When Anxiety for the Future Feels Safer than Peace in the Now
As a recovering co-dependent, one of the first things I learned was the importance of naming my feelings. For about a month, I carried around a worksheet that I had printed out called the Wheel of Emotions. When I was unsure what I was feeling, I could pull out that crumpled piece of paper and…… Continue reading Why Does Joy Trigger Anxiety?
Greetings from my actual mattress in my Manhattan flat! Yes, that’s right, the days of sleeping on floor like a squatter are over. My bed frame arrives next week, so I’m still living like a meth addict with my mattress on the floor, but this too shall pass. With the busyness of moving from Texas…… Continue reading Focusing On Joy Doesn’t Mean You Haven’t Suffered
I had a hard day yesterday, and I can’t blame other people for my cloudy disposition. I acknowledge that certain moments triggered my feelings of anxiety and fear, but the feelings themselves were my own. The frustrating thing about self awareness is taking responsibility for all aspects of myself. Self accountability is the key to…… Continue reading In Defense of Bad Days