Dear People Doing Fireworks All Night on July 4th: Kindly F*@% Off

I’m pro-Independence Day, in the sense that I’m a fan of freedom and the right to bear arms. But there’s also something called the right to a decent night’s sleep: a key component being uninterrupted quiet. So tell me why myself, my cat DC, and the good people of Harlem and Morningside Heights, need to…… Continue reading Dear People Doing Fireworks All Night on July 4th: Kindly F*@% Off

Breaking News from My Therapist: There is No Happiness Limit

Somewhere along the healing journey, self-sabotage rears its funny-looking head. It can come in many disguises. Most lately, my self-sabotage has me thinking, “that’s enough goodness for today.” But the reality is: there is no Goodness Maximum or Goodness Limit. The strange, irrational, “Is this too much goodness?” feeling comes up when I’ve just done…… Continue reading Breaking News from My Therapist: There is No Happiness Limit

2020 Beauty Secrets of 6 Instagram Babes (And Where You Can Get Them)

What do you do when you see beautiful people on Instagram slaying the beauty game? You interview them! Read on for the beauty, makeup, and skin care favorites from six of my favorite Instagram babes. Don’t forget to follow their pages for your daily dose of hotness. Subscribe to get access Read more of this…… Continue reading 2020 Beauty Secrets of 6 Instagram Babes (And Where You Can Get Them)

Numb / Detox / Relapse / Recycle ?

“and I have become comfortably numb,” is what Pink Floyd song says in what I consider to be one of the most depressing songs of all time. When I look back at when I started using drugs, it was because I enjoyed feeling comfortably numb. It was better than the anxiety and depression and self-defeating…… Continue reading Numb / Detox / Relapse / Recycle ?

Why Getting Healthy Actually Sucks

Ugh. Just ugh. Here’s a piece that has been in my mind, pricking it my brain, for days now. It’s about why getting healthy, mentally and physically, actually sucks. It’s about why I actually hate personal growth. Eff this. It’s so hard, sometimes it feels too hard. And I feel both brave and hopeless and…… Continue reading Why Getting Healthy Actually Sucks

Four Things I Hate Most About Sobriety

I have to do things.I have to do things.I have to do things.I have to do things. Sobriety is just an endless stream, punctuated by sleep, of doing things. I mean, what the heck. Who signed up for this? I guess every human did, or any living thing, really. We’re just all out here, doing…… Continue reading Four Things I Hate Most About Sobriety

Lessons of the Fall: Letting Go

2020 is my first experience of East Coast fall, and it’s stunning. Watching the leaves fall, like sparkles dripping, I am reminded of how nature easily sheds itself, transforming from one season to another. Why do we humans cling so hard to what is no longer working? Imagine if a tree tried to cling to…… Continue reading Lessons of the Fall: Letting Go

5 Reasons Why Being Honest with Yourself is Better than Being Kind

Real change can only come from honesty. Whether it was my finances, relationships, physical wellbeing, or mental health – it took a rather uncomfortable intervention between me, myself, and I, before any real change could happen. The honesty did not feel good – in fact it felt upsetting. But sometimes, kindness is the greater evil.…… Continue reading 5 Reasons Why Being Honest with Yourself is Better than Being Kind

5 Things I Learned During My Relapse

Some of you may know that I quit smoking pot in Spring 2020. The first two weeks felt impossible, the first month was better, and by the second and third months I was feeling better and being more productive than I had for the past few years combined. Then, literally two days ago, after celebrating…… Continue reading 5 Things I Learned During My Relapse