How to Feel Good About What You Can Do (Versus Feeling Shite About What You Can’t)

My interest in Irish history is teaching me lots of cool terms, like shite and ta. But I digress – I need to tell you that it’s okay to feel okay about the things you are capable of doing. And that it’s not necessary to feel badly about those things you aren’t capable of doing.…… Continue reading How to Feel Good About What You Can Do (Versus Feeling Shite About What You Can’t)

Ritalin: To Take or Not to Take? That Is the Question

Hey guys, it’s been a while since I’ve written about substances in my life. I went from chilling, to realizing I couldn’t chill anymore and be happy, to beginning a journey of sobriety that showed me how much I came to rely on the magical marijuana plant. This led me to some much-needed therapy and…… Continue reading Ritalin: To Take or Not to Take? That Is the Question

Sobriety During the Holidays: Impossible?

I’ll start this post by saying I broke my sobriety the other day and although it was a great time with friends, and though I felt fine the following day, I knew I was going down a slippery slope. The truth is, it’s either all or nothing for me, and right now I’m choosing nothing.…… Continue reading Sobriety During the Holidays: Impossible?

Bedtime Routines and a Lesson in Karma

I’ve been reading the Bhagavad Gita in my endless journey into the unknown recesses of my mind, and I learned that the way we Westerners understand Karma is woefully ignorant. Yes, it can be summed up in the phrase, “What goes around comes around,” but there’s another dimension to the concept of Karma that I…… Continue reading Bedtime Routines and a Lesson in Karma

Pics or It Didn’t Happen: Social Media and Sacrificing the Moment

Riding uptown in a yellow cab, windows down, smelling the September air (surprisingly fresh despite this concrete jungle,) I pulled out my phone to snap a video for Instagram. I wished to share the moment with my followers, my friends, the world. But I quickly put my phone back in my purse, aware that if…… Continue reading Pics or It Didn’t Happen: Social Media and Sacrificing the Moment

Why Does Joy Trigger Anxiety?

As a recovering co-dependent, one of the first things I learned was the importance of naming my feelings. For about a month, I carried around a worksheet that I had printed out called the Wheel of Emotions. When I was unsure what I was feeling, I could pull out that crumpled piece of paper and…… Continue reading Why Does Joy Trigger Anxiety?

Focusing On Joy Doesn’t Mean You Haven’t Suffered

Greetings from my actual mattress in my Manhattan flat! Yes, that’s right, the days of sleeping on floor like a squatter are over. My bed frame arrives next week, so I’m still living like a meth addict with my mattress on the floor, but this too shall pass. With the busyness of moving from Texas…… Continue reading Focusing On Joy Doesn’t Mean You Haven’t Suffered

Benefits of Quarantine: Blessings in Disguise

I, too, am annoyed by any person that says “Aw shucks, I don’t want global quarantine to end, it’s been fun!” But… I will admit there are many benefits that come as a result of the COVID19 quarantines. Here are four that I’ve experienced personally, making me believe some side-effects of the global pandemic are…… Continue reading Benefits of Quarantine: Blessings in Disguise

In Defense of Bad Days

I had a hard day yesterday, and I can’t blame other people for my cloudy disposition. I acknowledge that certain moments triggered my feelings of anxiety and fear, but the feelings themselves were my own. The frustrating thing about self awareness is taking responsibility for all aspects of myself. Self accountability is the key to…… Continue reading In Defense of Bad Days

Addicted to Worry and Illusions of Control

I’ve been doing *the most* lately. And it’s been great, it’s been lovely, it’s been scary, it’s been empowering. The trend has been positive, overall. So why is it so hard for me to stay in a state of joyfulness? Why is it so easy – comfortable, even – for me to provoke my mind…… Continue reading Addicted to Worry and Illusions of Control