Somewhere along the healing journey, self-sabotage rears its funny-looking head. It can come in many disguises. Most lately, my self-sabotage has me thinking, “that’s enough goodness for today.” But the reality is: there is no Goodness Maximum or Goodness Limit. The strange, irrational, “Is this too much goodness?” feeling comes up when I’ve just done…… Continue reading Breaking News from My Therapist: There is No Happiness Limit
My interest in Irish history is teaching me lots of cool terms, like shite and ta. But I digress – I need to tell you that it’s okay to feel okay about the things you are capable of doing. And that it’s not necessary to feel badly about those things you aren’t capable of doing.…… Continue reading How to Feel Good About What You Can Do (Versus Feeling Shite About What You Can’t)
Maybe we are all liars. Maybe we have all been forced to lie. But there is always a chance, and a choice, to reveal the truth. Do I dare? Do you?
Hey guys, it’s been a while since I’ve written about substances in my life. I went from chilling, to realizing I couldn’t chill anymore and be happy, to beginning a journey of sobriety that showed me how much I came to rely on the magical marijuana plant. This led me to some much-needed therapy and…… Continue reading Ritalin: To Take or Not to Take? That Is the Question
I just got out of a hot bath. I put a few drops of lavender essential oil and a few more drops of ylang ylang essential oil in the tub, stirred it around, and lowered myself into the steamy, hot water. Then I looked around at my bathroom and noticed some spots that needed cleaning.…… Continue reading Perfectionism Has No Place in Self-Care (Or My Bathtub)
As you guys may know, I’ve been on a journey from recognizing I had an addiction to marijuana, to addressing it and changing my bad habits and living a new life. Since I began this journey I have relapsed. It terrifies me how easy it is to fall back into those bad habits. Why is…… Continue reading Why is Breaking Habits So Hard? (Not What You Think)
I’ll start this post by saying I broke my sobriety the other day and although it was a great time with friends, and though I felt fine the following day, I knew I was going down a slippery slope. The truth is, it’s either all or nothing for me, and right now I’m choosing nothing.…… Continue reading Sobriety During the Holidays: Impossible?
Ugh. Just ugh. Here’s a piece that has been in my mind, pricking it my brain, for days now. It’s about why getting healthy, mentally and physically, actually sucks. It’s about why I actually hate personal growth. Eff this. It’s so hard, sometimes it feels too hard. And I feel both brave and hopeless and…… Continue reading Why Getting Healthy Actually Sucks
I have to do things.I have to do things.I have to do things.I have to do things. Sobriety is just an endless stream, punctuated by sleep, of doing things. I mean, what the heck. Who signed up for this? I guess every human did, or any living thing, really. We’re just all out here, doing…… Continue reading Four Things I Hate Most About Sobriety
2020 is my first experience of East Coast fall, and it’s stunning. Watching the leaves fall, like sparkles dripping, I am reminded of how nature easily sheds itself, transforming from one season to another. Why do we humans cling so hard to what is no longer working? Imagine if a tree tried to cling to…… Continue reading Lessons of the Fall: Letting Go