Lessons of the Fall: Letting Go

2020 is my first experience of East Coast fall, and it’s stunning. Watching the leaves fall, like sparkles dripping, I am reminded of how nature easily sheds itself, transforming from one season to another. Why do we humans cling so hard to what is no longer working? Imagine if a tree tried to cling to…… Continue reading Lessons of the Fall: Letting Go

5 Things I Learned During My Relapse

Some of you may know that I quit smoking pot in Spring 2020. The first two weeks felt impossible, the first month was better, and by the second and third months I was feeling better and being more productive than I had for the past few years combined. Then, literally two days ago, after celebrating…… Continue reading 5 Things I Learned During My Relapse

A Time for Learning and a Time for Doing

In May of 2019, I had just quit my 9-5 job in order to work for myself. It was the biggest leap of faith I had taken at that time, and I woke up in a panic during the first few weeks afterward. “What have I done?” and “I wonder if I can get my…… Continue reading A Time for Learning and a Time for Doing

Why Perfectionism Kills Fun

It’s been a while since my last post. Like, almost a month? I can make excuses: I’ve been putting down roots in New York City; I’ve been adopting a cat; I’ve been working on my meditation and exercise routines. All of these are true, but the real reason I’ve been procrastinating is that I struggle…… Continue reading Why Perfectionism Kills Fun

Benefits of Quarantine: Blessings in Disguise

I, too, am annoyed by any person that says “Aw shucks, I don’t want global quarantine to end, it’s been fun!” But… I will admit there are many benefits that come as a result of the COVID19 quarantines. Here are four that I’ve experienced personally, making me believe some side-effects of the global pandemic are…… Continue reading Benefits of Quarantine: Blessings in Disguise

Flying, Falling with Style, and Living Free from Fear

I’m writing this from somewhere in Harlem, New York City. I had to get away from my friends for a while because I felt overwhelmed by everything – these present changes, the future, the past… It felt like so much, too much. So, I did what I do best – went to a nearby cafe,…… Continue reading Flying, Falling with Style, and Living Free from Fear

One Thing Leads to Another

I’ve been working on my dependencies lately, most critically the nature of co-dependency and the nature of finding emotionally unavailable people attractive. One thing that has become apparent as I go down this healing journey, is that I am using other substances as an additional source of dependency. I’m talking about addiction. I’m talking about…… Continue reading One Thing Leads to Another

The Quietness of Self-Care

I’ve been researching a lot on co-dependency. I’m more aware of the symptoms and patterns of codependent behavior, and being open to this knowledge is helping me to re-focus my intent and actions. The thing is, I often find myself wanting to instigate something exciting, only to stop myself, because yay for non-manipulative, authentic interactions.…… Continue reading The Quietness of Self-Care